{"id":23937,"date":"2022-10-31T13:14:23","date_gmt":"2022-10-31T20:14:23","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/occupysf.net\/?p=23937"},"modified":"2022-10-31T20:46:05","modified_gmt":"2022-11-01T03:46:05","slug":"she-was-a-leading-lesbian-activist-before-disappearing-into-northern-california-a-filmmaker-wants-to-know-why","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/occupysf.net\/index.php\/2022\/10\/31\/she-was-a-leading-lesbian-activist-before-disappearing-into-northern-california-a-filmmaker-wants-to-know-why\/","title":{"rendered":"She was a leading lesbian activist before disappearing into Northern California. A filmmaker wants to know why"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/s.hdnux.com\/photos\/01\/30\/05\/41\/23091274\/24\/1200x0.jpg\" alt=\"Sally Gearhart was a lesbian activist and writer who retreated to a land where only women lived.\"\/><figcaption>Robert Giard\/University of Oregon Libraries<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.sfchronicle.com\/author\/ryan-kost\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noreferrer noopener\">RYAN KOST<\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Oct. 30, 2022 (SFChronicle.com)<a rel=\"noreferrer noopener\" href=\"mailto:?subject=Your%20friend%20has%20shared%20a%20San%20Francisco%20Chronicle%20link%20with%20you%3A%20&amp;body=She%20was%20a%20leading%20lesbian%20activist%20before%20disappearing%20into%20Northern%20California.%20A%20filmmaker%20wants%20to%20know%20why%0A%0Ahttps%3A%2F%2Fwww.sfchronicle.com%2Fbayarea%2Farticle%2Fsally-miller-gearhart-activist-17537049.php%3Futm_campaign%3DCMS%2520Sharing%2520Tools%2520(Premium)%26utm_source%3Dshare-by-email%26utm_medium%3Demail%0A%0ASally%20Gearhart%20taught%20women%E2%80%99s%20studies%20at%20San%20Francisco%20State%20University%2C%20wrote%20some%20of...%0A%0AThis%20message%20was%20sent%20via%20San%20Francisco%20Chronicle\" target=\"_blank\"><\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.sfchronicle.com\/bayarea\/articleComments\/sally-miller-gearhart-activist-17537049.php\">Comments<\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>There was a rhythm to life on The Land, a sweet cadence in the place up Sherwood Road, just outside Willits in unincorporated Mendocino County.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The days began at first light \u2014 a meal, perhaps, followed by the gathering of firewood. Early on, in the \u201970s, days were spent building: constructing homes from scraps, developing a spring for running water, planting a garden and building a fence to keep the deer out. At dusk, before the only light around came from flashlights, ingredients were gathered and a fire started. There was singing, too, and lots of laughter on this Northern California land, claimed and staked for women.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cHeaven\u201d is how one woman described it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>As the years passed, the community grew and then shrank until&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sfchronicle.com\/bayarea\/article\/Sally-Gearhart-lesbian-activist-professor-and-16349776.php\">Sally Miller Gearhart<\/a>&nbsp;was the only one left, the lone holdout living on The Land year-round. Gearhart was a woman of many accomplishments. She wrote some of the first speculative lesbian fiction. She helped establish one of the nation\u2019s first women\u2019s studies programs at San Francisco State University. And she stood alongside Harvey Milk as he fought to defeat the anti-gay Briggs Initiative in 1978.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But the country setting had always called to Gearhart, so this was the place where Deborah Craig, a documentary filmmaker, found her in 2014. Now, with many of Gearhart\u2019s achievements lost in the haze of history, Craig is working toward completion of a film to introduce Gearhart to a new generation.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cWhen I first met Sally, I was like, \u2018What went wrong?\u2019 She\u2019s here, she\u2019s alone, she\u2019s in the woods. This is a sad story. It\u2019s not going to end well,\u201d Craig says. \u201cAnd we spent months and months, if not years, trying to figure out what happened.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">When Deborah met Sally<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>Craig never sought out Gearhart, not specifically. As so often happens, one thing led to another.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Her name came up in the course of a different project, about lesbians and aging, that Craig was working on while pursuing a master\u2019s degree in public health.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI was just told, \u2018Oh, I know a woman you might want to interview \u2014 she still lives on a women\u2019s land community in the woods in Northern California, and she\u2019s in her 80s and she still cuts her own firewood with a chain saw.\u2019\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>That visual was everything.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI wanted a picture of that,\u201d Craig says. \u201cI wanted videotape of that.\u201dExcerpt from \u201cA Great Ride\u201d (2018). Director Deborah Craig, co-director Veronica Duport Deliz. Silvia Turchin was the director of Photography.&nbsp;Video: San Francisco Chronicle<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>She got that tape and more, when she met&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/sallymillergearhart.net\/\">Gearhart at her home,<\/a>&nbsp;tucked away in the hills outside Willits. Craig got her, late into her 80s, dressed in all denim, save for a white T-shirt and white Nike tennis shoes, driving around in a beat-up Jeep, seats all foam and springs, careening up and down dirt paths, shouting at the camera:&nbsp;<em>\u201cYou OK back there?\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>More for you<\/p>\n\n\n\n<ul><li><a href=\"https:\/\/www.sfchronicle.com\/bayarea\/article\/Sally-Gearhart-lesbian-activist-professor-and-16349776.php\"><\/a><a href=\"https:\/\/www.sfchronicle.com\/bayarea\/article\/Sally-Gearhart-lesbian-activist-professor-and-16349776.php\">Sally Gearhart, lesbian activist, professor and an ace with a chain saw, dies at 90<\/a><a href=\"https:\/\/www.sfchronicle.com\/bayarea\/article\/Sally-Gearhart-lesbian-activist-professor-and-16349776.php\"><\/a><a href=\"https:\/\/www.sfchronicle.com\/bayarea\/article\/Sally-Gearhart-lesbian-activist-professor-and-16349776.php\"><\/a><\/li><li><a href=\"https:\/\/www.sfchronicle.com\/california\/article\/california-crt-ban-lgbtq-17385179.php\"><\/a><a href=\"https:\/\/www.sfchronicle.com\/california\/article\/california-crt-ban-lgbtq-17385179.php\">From critical race theory bans to anti-LGBTQ rules: Will conservatives transform California schools?<\/a><a href=\"https:\/\/www.sfchronicle.com\/california\/article\/california-crt-ban-lgbtq-17385179.php\"><\/a><a href=\"https:\/\/www.sfchronicle.com\/california\/article\/california-crt-ban-lgbtq-17385179.php\"><\/a><\/li><\/ul>\n\n\n\n<p>She got Gearhart blowing smoke rings. She got Gearhart rolling under a barbed-wire fence, dusting off her hands on her pants and turning to the camera as she pulled down the metal braids for Craig, like an invitation to follow. \u201cWould you like for me to hold the camera for you?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And she put all this in the early drafts of her short film, along with moments from the lives of other women, making their own ways into advanced age.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cEverybody who saw the footage was like \u2018Who is this? She\u2019s so amazing. You\u2019ve got to make a film about her. \u2026 You shouldn\u2019t do a film about aging, you should just do a film about Sally.\u2019\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>By the time Craig had finished her short,&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.documentaries.org\/sally\">she\u2019d grown to agree.<\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">The making of an activist<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>Almost everybody starts by describing Gearhart\u2019s voice, though the descriptions often seem to contradict one another. \u201cDeep.\u201d \u201cBeautiful.\u201d \u201cBooming.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI loved listening to her talk,\u201d says Cleve Jones, a longtime gay rights activist, and a contemporary of both Gearhart and Milk. \u201cAnd sometimes I thought what she was saying was just crazy. But I never got tired of listening to that voice.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Gearhart was tall \u2014 5 feet 9 \u2014 with big hair and a broad (and warm) smile. She didn\u2019t shave her armpits, but she almost always wore lipstick. One friend (and Land partner), Bonnie Gordon, described her as having a butch exterior and femme interior.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>She was a lesbian separatist who spent a lot of time with men. A conservationist who said prayers for fallen trees and, later in life, sought commonality with the same loggers she\u2019d once flipped off as they drove trucks through Willits. She fought conservatives\u2019 attempts to ban queer people from public life by matching them, verse for verse, with her knowledge of the Bible.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The night that Milk died, she set police cars on fires in protest \u2014 or she spoke to the crowd telling everybody to remain calm. It depends on whom you ask.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>All these contradictions make her an interesting topic for a documentary. They also make her a difficult one. History gets clarified in the retelling, and Craig has chosen to make a first draft, to gather all the disparate threads and weave them together.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Craig and her crew have interviewed more than four dozen people, logging hundreds of hours of footage. Talk to that many people and a person, a narrative, becomes complicated, almost unruly. \u201cThe whole thing about Sally is the more we found out about her, the more interesting and complicated we found out she was.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Sally and her many lives<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>The trouble with making a documentary about Gearhart is there wasn\u2019t just one of her; she was the sort of person who packs multiple lives into a single lifetime.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>She was born 1931 in Pearisburg, Va., a small town on the Appalachian Trail, and raised by her grandmother after her parents\u2019 divorce.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Later, at Sweet Briar College, a nearby private women\u2019s institution, she charmed her classmates with that voice \u2014 by singing and acting, being big and taking up space, according to Pat Winks, a friend who lived down the hallway at the time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cSally drew herself to people. She was someone who wanted to know you, wanted to know what you were like,\u201d Winks told Craig during a day of filming in her San Francisco home. \u201cYou like somebody who wants to know you. That was Sally.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Winks knew Gearhart was a lesbian in college, most everybody did, but, she says, \u201cwe didn\u2019t talk about it, really.\u201d That might have been the way Gearhart kept living, quietly and in the closet \u2014 and for many years she did as she pursued a master\u2019s, then her doctorate, and settled down for a life in academia, teaching speech and theater in Texas in the \u201960s. \u201cFor ten years, she taught passionately, judged beauty contests, and publicly denied the reality of her personal life and convictions,\u201d writes Christine Cole in a short biography on Gearhart\u2019s personal website.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>By 1970, though, Gearhart had made up her mind to move to San Francisco, intent on becoming a different, open version of herself, no matter the costs.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>This is when the Gearhart most people know was born. \u201cI heard from one of her close friends fairly early on, Sally would not have become Sally if she didn\u2019t come to San Francisco,\u201d Craig says. \u201cShe could have stayed in the South. She had a tenure track job. She could have stayed in the closet.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>From 1973 to 1992, Gearhart taught at San Francisco State University, earning tenure as an out lesbian, a considerable feat given the politics of the time. This is where she met Jane Gurko, her life partner and devoted friend \u2014 even after their romantic relationship ended. Together, they helped&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.legacy.com\/us\/obituaries\/willitsnews\/name\/jane-gurko-obituary?id=21158476\">\u201cinitiate a ground-breaking curriculum experiment\u201d<\/a>&nbsp;that would become one of the first women\u2019s studies programs in the nation.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cShe was a wonderful teacher and just so engaging and so welcoming and so affirming of everyone,\u201d says Bonnie Gordon, a student of Gearhart\u2019s and later a resident on The Land. \u201cI told (a) friend who had taken a class with her \u2026 \u2018You know, I really have a crush on Sally.\u2019 And she said \u2018You and every other woman in San Francisco.\u2019\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>During this time, Gearhart became a fixture of lesbian activist spaces. She spoke out against discriminatory politicians. In 1977, she was among the 26 gay men and women featured in the seminal documentary&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.criterionchannel.com\/word-is-out-stories-of-some-of-our-lives\">\u201cWord Is Out: Stories of Some of Our Lives.\u201d<\/a>&nbsp;This is how many people, including historian Estelle Freedman, first encountered Gearhart.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cShe was stunning, such a powerful, charismatic speaker, and so thoughtful,\u201d Freedman says. \u201cBy claiming her lesbianism \u2014 this was not something visible in film, television, literature in classrooms, you simply didn\u2019t see it.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It was during this time that Gearhart began to write, too \u2014 essays and books about women\u2019s rights and lesbian activism, asserting, in one piece\u2019s title, that \u201cThe Future \u2014 If There Is One \u2014 is Female.\u201d In her political writing, she sometimes put forth explosive proposals \u2014 reducing the percentage of men (over time) to just 10% of the population, for example.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cIt was evocative hyperbole,\u201d says Susan Leo, one of the women called to The Land. \u201cSally wanted people to think seriously about the violence and the culture of violence perpetuated by the patriarchy.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>In her science fiction, Gearhart used words to carve speculative futures where these ideals were allowed to live. She created worlds where, as author&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.amazon.com\/Jewelle-Gomez\/e\/B000APET98?ref=sr_ntt_srch_lnk_1&amp;qid=1666757223&amp;sr=1-1&amp;tag=hearstnp-sfc-20&amp;ascsubtag=wcm%7E17537049%7E1667247006%7Einl%7E%7E%7E%7E9e438d8a%7E0c83f57c%7E649fcf5b\">Jewelle Gomez<\/a>&nbsp;put it, \u201cwomen were not victimized.\u201d Gearhart was not the first to do this, she wrote alongside other, better known authors, most notably Octavia Butler. But Gomez remembers the impact of Gearhart\u2019s serialized stories about&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.amazon.com\/Wanderground-Stories-Sally-Miller-Gearhart\/dp\/1883523478?tag=hearstnp-sfc-20&amp;ascsubtag=wcm%7E17537049%7E1667247006%7Einl%7E%7E%7E%7E9e438d8a%7E0c83f57c%7E649fcf5b\">\u201cThe Wanderground,\u201d<\/a>&nbsp;a land where women, psychically connected, formed a utopian existence, away and free from men. The stories were collected and released under that same name in 1979; it remained in print for more than 20 years.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cIt really did create a stir because it was just one of the first books, I would say, that imagined a world in which a community of women was self-sufficient, protected itself,\u201d Gomez says. \u201cShe set the pace for a lot of other writers who came after her with just that one book.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Around the same time as she wrote about these \u201chill women,\u201d Gearhart, her partner and two close friends began to cultivate a community in the hills of Mendocino County. \u201cFeminist utopian ideals. Freedom. Land ownership. Country life.\u201d All of that drew Gearhart away from big city life, which she \u201calways felt to be a necessity not a preference,\u201d Leo says. \u201cAfter a long search, she found Willits and it felt like home.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">\u2018A guiding light\u2019<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>The morning interviews stretched into the early evening as Bonnie Gordon and Penny Sablove shared stories about Gearhart, one of their closest friends. They were among the many land partners who made a home (theirs was called Coraz\u00f3n) outside Willits, so they knew her with a keen sort of intimacy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Gordon spoke about how Gearhart collected \u201cpeople on the fringe.\u201d This was a woman, Gordon said, who fed raccoons and held a deer as it died.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sablove called Gearhart \u201ca guiding light.\u201d People got it wrong when they called her a \u201cseparatist.\u201d It wasn\u2019t that she disliked men. \u201cShe just wondered what would women, would girls, be like without all the crap they must deal with.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Craig nodded along as they spoke. She never rushed to fill pauses; she let Gordon and Sablove do that instead.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Through her questions, Craig tried to pull the details of people\u2019s Sallys from decades in the past.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>When the day was nearly up, Craig had \u201cone last question\u201d for Sablove \u2014 the same question she always liked to end on.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cIs there anything you\u2019d like to thank Sally for?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sablove thought for a moment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI want to thank Sally for her generosity.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<!--more-->\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Cut from history<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>There\u2019s a scene in \u201cMilk,\u201d the 2008 Academy Award-winning biopic about the life of San Francisco activist and politician Harvey Milk, where Milk faces off against John Briggs, a California state senator, who, in the late \u201970s, had proposed banning gay people from teaching in public schools.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The two men meet in an Orange County school gymnasium, a moderator between them. The crowd is hostile, but Harvey delivers a zinger: \u201cYou, yourself, have said there\u2019s more molestation in the heterosexual group, so why not get rid of the heterosexual teacher?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Only something is missing from the scene: Gearhart. In truth, she and Harvey sat side by side during multiple debates against Briggs.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The activist Jones says he\u2019d introduced the two for exactly this reason \u2014 together, he figured, they\u2019d soften and complement one another. \u201cShe and Harvey were just this great team because Harvey was sort of New York, Jewish \u2026. There\u2019s a bit of edge to him, you know, a little bit sarcastic,\u201d Jones says. \u201cAnd she had this Southern inflection and this background in theology.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>By some accounts, it was Gearhart who was the standout against Briggs, though most of the film from those debates has been lost, at least for now. Jenni Olson, the archival researcher for the documentary about Gearhart, calls it \u201cthe holy grail.\u201d But one can get a small taste, from a brief clip Craig uses in the trailer for her film.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cOverwhelmingly, I might add, it\u2019s the heterosexual man who are the child molesters,\u201d Gearhart says in the clip.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI believe that\u2019s a myth,\u201d Briggs responds.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cOh, senator, the FBI, the National Council on Family Relations, the Santa Clara County Childhood Sexual Abuse Treatment Center and on and on and on,\u201d Gearhart said, citing a list of studies about the topic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Her absence in \u201cMilk\u201d was a harsh indictment, for those who loved and knew her, of how Gearhart\u2019s contributions to the movement \u2014 and the contributions of so many women \u2014 could be so easily ignored.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Leo remembers watching \u201cMilk\u201d with Gearhart. \u201cShe just rolled her eyes and was like \u2018Well, that\u2019s typical.\u2019\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>There is a version of \u201cMilk\u201d that included Gearhart and her deep and honeyed voice. Dustin Lance Black\u2019s earliest versions of the screenplay included her, right alongside Harvey, true to the mom-and-pop front they presented on stage those decades ago.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But a biopic is not a documentary, and Black faced pressure to trim the script. Big characters who show up late in the third act, like Gearhart, he said during a phone call from London, \u201care often the ones who never make it to screen.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>He made a point, some years later, to include her in&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=hBhhrwYiPgM\">a miniseries about the movement<\/a>&nbsp;he wrote for ABC, but the point, really, is this: \u201cSally is deserving of a film of her own.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cFilm has the power to help people see,\u201d says Olson, the archivist, \u201cto help people latch on\u201d to history.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cOur history, queer history, has been buried. And it\u2019s been buried because until very recently \u2014 and hopefully never again \u2014 our lives have been illegal,\u201d Black says. \u201cThere is a vast mosaic \u2026 of queer foremothers and forefathers. And these stories must be told. But first they have to be excavated.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">\u2018She loved everybody\u2019<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>There are no signs to help direct a person to the place up Sherwood Road. A hand-drawn map on pink paper is about as good as it gets.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>On The Land, the leaves falling from the Black Oak trees sound like rain when they hit a roof \u2014 and like snow when they meet the bottom of a boot. Dirt paths cut through tall, and tick-filled, grass, connecting one home to another, most with their own names \u2014 Bay Tree, Coraz\u00f3n (\u201cheart\u201d in Spanish), Terpsichore (the Greek muse of poetry and dance) and Sunspot.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Near Gearhart\u2019s old home, there\u2019s a tall madrone with knots in its smooth bark that look a lot like a woman\u2019s breasts. Whether she ever noticed, we might never know. But Vivian Power, a friend of Gearhart\u2019s, laughed as she pointed them out \u2014 the knots; the breasts \u2014 on a cool morning last winter just before she poured some of Gearhart\u2019s ashes into a gnarled nook at the base of the very same tree. \u201cI really have a feeling she built \u2026 here because of its size.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Power met Gearhart when she showed up to a Spanish class that Power was teaching. Gearhart wore high heels, unusual for Willits. \u201cThis giant figure,\u201d Power says. She had to force herself to look away, to make eye contact with the other students. They became close friends, and Power was with Gearhart in the days leading up to her passing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>After Power had emptied the small jar of Gearhart\u2019s ashes, she paused, taking in the moment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cShe loved me. I mean, she really did,\u201d Power said. \u201cShe loved everybody. This came up at her memorial how everybody that got there just thought, \u2018Oh, I am her best friend.\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cShe made everybody feel that way.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Sally in her own words<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>In the first half of 1995 \u2014 two decades into living on The Land, on and off \u2014 Gearhart wrote and revised an essay titled \u201cNotes From a Recovering Activist.\u201d She wrote about her past and her time taking to the streets.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI marched and rallied and picketed, raged and wept and threatened, crusaded and persuaded and brigaded,\u201d she wrote. \u201cBut I\u2019m giving it up.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Don\u2019t mistake her, she writes, \u201cI feel more passionately than ever about issues of justice and peace and environmental health. But I\u2019m going about my life in a different way, a way in fact that I\u2019ve scorned for twenty-five years.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>She\u2019d stopped trying to change people, she writes. \u201cI\u2019m assuming that cleaning up my own act is the best contribution I can make to any cause.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>She imagined the reader rolling her eyes. But, while she might have, five years earlier, cursed at a logger carrying dead trees down a highway; or, two years prior, prayed he might see the error of his way, now she was making no effort to judge or to change him, but simply trusting that the \u201cacknowledgment of our kinship can make a positive difference in the texture of all of our lives.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>She understood the holes in this line of thinking, but after all her years and all of her lives, it\u2019s where she wound up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Maybe living on The Land, in a small world of her creation, taught her something about the wider world. Lauretta Molitor, who is running sound for the documentary, has given this some thought.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNone of us are static and set in stone,\u201d she said some months ago during an interview. \u201cAs strongly as she might have held certain views \u2026 we all evolve.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">A funeral, and dancing<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>Ideally \u2014 \u201cin the best of circumstances\u201d \u2014 Gearhart would have dropped dead on a dance floor and all the witnesses would \u201crejoice with me.\u201d At least that\u2019s how she imagined her death in a rather detailed document dated 2001.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Her end, though, wasn\u2019t quite as she imagined.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>On April 15, 2021, Gearhart\u2019s friends gathered on the land for her 90th birthday. That was a Thursday. Three days later, she moved to an assisted living home nearby, where she spent the last of her days.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Gearhart had strict instructions for what to do in the event of her death. She was fine, even glad, to give her \u201cbody parts\u201d to save the lives of baboons or other \u201cnonhuman primates,\u201d but she\u2019d permit a donation to another human only on the condition that using animal body parts in humans was, by the time of her death, unlawful.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cOtherwise, keep all my parts and products with the body they know and love, letting them all share a common demise,\u201d she wrote in the same document in which she had detailed her death on a dance floor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Her body, she suggested, could possibly be mulched and made into dog food or dropped on the Alaskan tundra as a meal for the polar bears.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>If none of that was possible, cremation would suffice. As for the funeral: \u201cIf there\u2019s a need for some sort of \u2018closure occasion,\u2019 please just be sure it\u2019s a celebration and that there\u2019s lots of dancing and singing.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>So that\u2019s how it went on the day of Gearhart\u2019s \u201ccelebration of life,\u201d nearly one year ago, in a park in downtown Willits.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>There were speeches and songs and poetry, all dedicated to Gearhart, a woman who helped shape more than one movement and usually ate standing up \u2014 handfuls of Goldfish or Ritz Crackers, washed down with Pepsi, followed by canned frosting for dessert.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Craig spoke, too. The truth is, over the course of making the documentary, Craig became a part of Gearhart\u2019s life and Gearhart became a part of hers.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t think it\u2019s possible to step all the way back ever,\u201d Craig says. \u201cI mean, you couldn\u2019t know Sally or even make a good film about her without getting some kind of emotional attachment \u2014 a connection not just to her, but to the people surrounding her.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>As it stands now, Craig hopes to hit a late 2023 film festival run. She just won a $25,000 grant from the Berkeley Film Foundation to help with the completion of the project.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Not even Craig knows what that film will look like by then.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The challenge before her now is to resurrect this woman for a wider audience, and to reconcile all her many lives: Sally the student, Sally the professor, Sally the author, Sally the activist, Sally the lesbian separatist, Sally the woman living on The Land until the end.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Ryan Kost is a former San Francisco Chronicle staff writer. 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He started at The Chronicle in 2015 covering arts and entertainment for the paper&#8217;s Datebook section and has since written about everything from health care for transgender children and death and dying during the age of coronavirus to Silicon Valley cat conventions and Toy Story press junkets. He&#8217;s always on the lookout for unexpected and untold stories &#8211; the stuff we generally miss and look past.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kost left The Chronicle in 2022. Previously, he worked for The Oregonian and The Associated Press covering national, state and city politics and, before that, The Boston Globe. 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