{"id":24373,"date":"2022-12-04T12:23:47","date_gmt":"2022-12-04T20:23:47","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/occupysf.net\/?p=24373"},"modified":"2022-12-04T12:23:49","modified_gmt":"2022-12-04T20:23:49","slug":"this-rocker-went-from-whistleblower-to-addict-to-fame","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/occupysf.net\/index.php\/2022\/12\/04\/this-rocker-went-from-whistleblower-to-addict-to-fame\/","title":{"rendered":"This Rocker Went From Whistleblower to Addict\u2014to Fame"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Written by\u00a0<a href=\"https:\/\/sfstandard.com\/author\/matt-smith\/\">Matt Smith<\/a> Video by\u00a0<a href=\"https:\/\/sfstandard.com\/author\/sophie-bearman\/\">Sophie Bearman<\/a> Published\u00a0Nov. 28, 2022 \u2022 sfstandard.com<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/sfstandard.com\/_next\/image\/?url=https%3A%2F%2Fsfstandard.com%2Fwp-content%2Fuploads%2F2022%2F11%2FSFS_JOHNMURRY_EXPLANATION.00_00_23_14.Still002.jpg&amp;w=3840&amp;q=75\" alt=\"\"\/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>John Murry interviews in The Standard&#8217;s studio. | Sophie Bearman\/The Standard<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>John Murry, a student and musician from Tupelo, Mississippi, lay limp from a heroin overdose at the Eula Hotel near the corner of 16th and Mission streets in San Francisco, less than two blocks from the college he believed mishandled a rape allegation from a fellow student.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Twenty years later, Murry says that the political fallout he encountered after attempting to expose wrongdoing at the school contributed to his descent into hard drugs\u2014and led him to write two of his best-known songs.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>As he recovered from that experience two decades ago, Murry turned the ordeal with the now-defunct school into lyrics. His debut solo album,&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/evangelinerecordingco.bigcartel.com\/product\/the-graceless-age\"><em>The Graceless Age<\/em><\/a>, which he finished in 2009 and released in 2013, ended up&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.theguardian.com\/music\/2013\/may\/02\/john-murry-graceless-age-review\">championed by critics<\/a>&nbsp;worldwide, making Murry a cult figure among fans of Southern Gothic rock. Murry has been the subject of profiles in&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/web.archive.org\/web\/20130521033329\/http:\/\/www.sfexaminer.com\/entertainment\/music\/2013\/04\/john-murry-s-emotional-journey#ixzz2Q8SKefSm\">publications<\/a>&nbsp;ranging from the UK\u2019s&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.theguardian.com\/music\/2013\/jun\/04\/john-murry-interview-graceless-age\">The Guardian<\/a>&nbsp;to&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.wsj.com\/articles\/SB10001424127887324685104578386672914287646\">The Wall Street Journal.<\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But none of Murry\u2019s chroniclers have reported on his description of his contribution to the downfall of a locally prominent university, giving him what may be a significant role in the history of San Francisco.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Murry says he\u2019s tried to describe this to interviewers. But they\u2019ve been more interested in aspects of his past consistent with a Southern gothic archetype, such as his familial connection with William Faulkner, his violent Mississippi childhood, drug use and breakups.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>During a recent return visit to San Francisco from Ireland, where he\u2019s lived for the last seven years, Murry described for The Standard a journey 15 years ago that took him from outrage, to action, to oblivion and, finally, to cultural prominence. It\u2019s a story that\u2019s unknown even to his fans.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"John Murry Performs &#039;Little Colored Balloons&#039; in SF Standard Studio\" width=\"800\" height=\"450\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/UPRZeJCCQjM?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Murry had come to San Francisco in 2000 in his early 20s to get a masters degree in psychology from New College of California. The school was a once-unavoidable presence in the Inner Mission. It conferred degrees in law, social work and other fields. But the school was best known for its left-wing branding and offerings like a masters degree in social protest.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Murry believed that a rape allegation against a New College administration official had been mishandled, something the school\u2019s former president denied in a recent interview with The Standard.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>At the time, Murry went about digging up evidence of other problems with the school\u2014separate from his view of the rape allegation\u2014that ended up jeopardizing New College\u2019s accreditation.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cIf my daughter walks into a fucking administrator\u2019s office and says, \u2018I was raped,\u2019 if that shit happens, I\u2019ll fucking go crazy,\u201d Murry said. \u201cI just decided, well, I\u2019m not helpless. I can do something about it.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>When asked whether he had called the police, or whether he had advised the victim to report the incident, Martin Hamilton, the school\u2019s president during this period, said he followed the school\u2019s protocols for such incidents. This meant forwarding the allegations to the school\u2019s sexual harrassment committee, and to a member of the psychology faculty with training in helping victims of sexual misconduct, he said. It was ultimately determined that there wasn\u2019t sufficient evidence to take action against the school official, Hamilton added.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cDid I feel sympathetic to her? Yes, I did. Did I believe her? I don\u2019t know. I wasn\u2019t there,\u201d Hamilton said. \u201cI had to also protect the person as a worker who had rights under the staff union provisions.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Murry, for his part, set about gathering allies in a hunt for documents.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI tolerated and befriended the registrar and the associate registrar and people within the administration and got access to the computers that had student records on them,\u201d Murry said. \u201cThe janitor was a friend of mine who would give me things that were fetched out of the waste basket.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It would be decades before Murry realized his impassioned response to the campus rape allegation may also have been connected to his own repressed memories of being sexually assaulted as a child.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/sfstandard.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/JohnMurry_INLINE1.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-97066\"\/><figcaption>Courtesy John Murry<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Murry said during 2007 he uncovered additional wrongdoing by the school and delivered damning documents he obtained to the Western Association of Schools and Colleges, an accreditation agency whose seal of approval was necessary for the federal aid keeping the school afloat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>In February 2008, the agency produced a scathing report alleging \u201cunbridled presidential authority\u201d in place of real standards for governance. It described an inability to verify the legitimacy of students\u2019 class credits,&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.documentcloud.org\/documents\/23307330-new-college\">an absence of coherent policies<\/a>&nbsp;for admissions, enrollment, records, grades or financial aid. But it did not address the rape claim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hamilton said he barely remembers Murry and did not recall if the musician had any role in the school\u2019s downfall. Rather, Hamilton said, he had always suspected it was his enemies on the teaching faculty that provided information to the accreditation agency.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Murry said that prior to investigating the school, he had imagined going on to earn a Ph.D and becoming a scholar. But disillusionment with New College, combined with estrangement from his then-wife, threw him into a steep downward spiral.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>He took up heroin, using it for two years until a paramedic found him at 16th and Mission and rescued him with a dose of the overdose-reversal drug naloxone, also known as Narcan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>On his visit to San Francisco in September, he explained that the two songs that caught the attention of critics worldwide, \u201c<a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=h_DlGmaSlg8\">California<\/a>\u201d and&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=6O8IKE3AWMg\">\u201cLittle Colored Balloons<\/a>,\u201d came out of his New College of California experience. The latter is an impassioned ballad about principles betrayed, which he sang in The Standard studio.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It describes the heroin overdose in his room at the Eula Hotel, and the disenchantment that got him there.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI remember telling a doctor there, \u2018This isn\u2019t me,\u2019\u201d Murry says. \u201cShe just goes, \u2018Ah, that\u2019s what every junkie says.\u2019\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Not long after Murry began investigating wrongdoing at New College, he says he was put on probation. Rather than the graduate psychology degree he had hoped for, he was given a masters degree in humanities\u2014a consolation prize, he says, for not being permitted to finish his studies. As concern about the school\u2019s continued accreditation became well-known, enrollment plummeted. Disaccreditation followed in 2008. The flow of federal funds halted. And New College soon collapsed.&nbsp;Murry describes how he helped take down New College. | Video by Sophie Bearman<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Today, the three-block section of Valencia Street near where Murry overdosed\u2014once dominated by a university campus\u2014is nothing but shops with no hint of the neighborhood\u2019s past.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>For Hamilton, however, the school\u2019s downfall meant the end of his life\u2019s work: providing a progressive education to students who might not have been able to study elsewhere.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cI did nothing wrong. I was an honorable person. I always did the right thing. I built a beautiful place that may have had many problems,\u201d Hamilton said. \u201cI did not cover up a rape at New College.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Murry eventually got off heroin and dedicated himself completely to what had been his sideline \u2014playing music. He put together a collection of doomsaying rock ballads. And he released them on his own label, San Francisco-based Evangeline Records. Not long afterward, he started getting phone calls\u2014from all over the world.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>What followed was a 2013 blizzard of global acclaim in major news outlets following the album&nbsp;<em>The Graceless Age<\/em>. The Guardian ran three stories in succession about the album. American Songwriter, the profession\u2019s trade magazine, gave him the ultimate seal of approval: stating in a review that&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/americansongwriter.com\/john-murry-the-graceless-age\/\">\u201che is the real deal as a songwriter.\u201d<\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Murry was in San Francisco in September collaborating with some old musician friends, on the heels of 2021\u2019s album&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.amazon.com\/Stars-Are-Gods-Bullet-Holes\/dp\/B091F18JRB\"><em>Stars Are Gods Bullet Holes<\/em><\/a>. He\u2019s a&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.johnmurry.com\/\">working musician<\/a>&nbsp;now, known for fervent live performances of \u201cLittle Colored Balloons.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Whenever he plays that and \u201cCalifornia,\u201d two of his most heralded songs, he remembers New College of California.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cPeople sometimes ask what songs are about. And I don\u2019t think that it\u2019s ever really possible to answer that question. But when it comes to those two songs, there\u2019s definitely things about those two songs that\u2014well, really the entire record\u2014that relate to that experience in that place,\u201d Murry said, before reciting his song \u201cCalifornia\u201d: \u201c\u2018I\u2019ve heard the Mission bells ring through the salty breeze. I\u2019ve seen politicians warn on a thousand TVs. There\u2019s a knife in every back and one in every hand. And I swear it ain\u2019t you, it\u2019s California I can\u2019t stand.\u2019 That\u2019s about that place.\u201dMurry discusses the meaning of his songs inspired by San Francisco. | Video by Sophie Bearman<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Before stepping into a taxi after the interview at The Standard\u2019s offices, Murry scanned the neighborhood, pausing in the direction of the Mission to the southeast, before saying: \u201cYou know, I kind of miss it here.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Matt Smith&nbsp;can be reached at&nbsp;<a href=\"mailto:matt@sfstandard.com\">matt@sfstandard.com<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Written by\u00a0Matt Smith Video by\u00a0Sophie Bearman Published\u00a0Nov. 28, 2022 \u2022 sfstandard.com John Murry interviews in The Standard&#8217;s studio. | Sophie Bearman\/The Standard John Murry, a student and musician from Tupelo, Mississippi, lay limp from a heroin overdose at the Eula Hotel near the corner of 16th and Mission streets in&#8230; <a class=\"continue-reading-link\" href=\"https:\/\/occupysf.net\/index.php\/2022\/12\/04\/this-rocker-went-from-whistleblower-to-addict-to-fame\/\"> Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr; <\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/occupysf.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24373"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/occupysf.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/occupysf.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/occupysf.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/occupysf.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=24373"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/occupysf.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24373\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":24374,"href":"https:\/\/occupysf.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24373\/revisions\/24374"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/occupysf.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=24373"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/occupysf.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=24373"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/occupysf.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=24373"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}